surrender don't come natural to me

this is a "hold me Jesus" kind of day.

Hold Me Jesus by Rich Mullins
(if you look down at the music player attached to my blog you can hear this song.)

Well, sometimes my life
Just don't make sense at all
When the mountains look so big
And my faith just seems so small

So hold me Jesus, 'cause I'm shaking like a leaf
You have been King of my glory
Won't You be my Prince of Peace

And I wake up in the night and feel the dark
It's so hot inside my soul
I swear there must be blisters on my heart

So hold me Jesus, 'cause I'm shaking like a leaf
You have been King of my glory
Won't You be my Prince of Peace

SURRENDER DON'T COME NATURAL TO ME
I'D RATHER FIGHT YOU FOR SOMETHING
I DON'T REALLY WANT
THAN TO TAKE WHAT YOU GIVE THAT I NEED
And I've beat my head against so many walls
Now I'm falling down, I'm falling on my knees
And this Salvation Army band
Is playing this hymn
And Your grace rings out so deep
It makes my resistance seem so thin

So hold me Jesus, 'cause I'm shaking like a leaf
You have been King of my glory
Won't You be my Prince of Peace

You have been King of my glory
Won't You be my Prince of Peace