Saturday, October 23, 2010
into the mystic
(you have to pause the player at the bottom to hear this song)
i am having a difficult time with the reality of 40 years old hitting me next week. how did this happen? where did time go? who am i? what will my life be like in 10 more years. 30 was bad. 40 is going to be barely breathable. i'm already starting to hyperventilate. i've been contemplating it this whole year. i cant stop time. i realize that....but still - 40....i have a lot of blessings in my life - of that i am positive. the hard time dealing has nothing to do with the many blessings.
it has to do with the fact that time is racing by....like sand between my fingers. or better yet like the wind...blowing..it's uncontainable. time is uncontainable. i dont want to waste it. i dont want 20 more years to fly by & have no clue where the time went....to be uncomfortable in my skin, to be lonely & old.
i know i cant change time moving, but i can learn to make the best of it - better than i have the last 40.
A Time for Everything
"There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under heaven:
a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain,
a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.
What does the worker gain from his toil?
I have seen the burden God has laid on men.
He has made everything beautiful in its time.
He has also set eternity in the hearts of men;
yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end.
I know that there is nothing better for men than to be happy and do good while they live.
That everyone may eat and drink, and find satisfaction in all his toil—this is the gift of God.
I know that everything God does will endure forever; nothing can be added to it and nothing taken from it. God does it so that men will revere him.
Whatever is has already been, and what will be has been before;
and God will call the past to account.
And I saw something else under the sun:
In the place of judgment—wickedness was there,
in the place of justice—wickedness was there.
I thought in my heart, "God will bring to judgment both the righteous and the wicked,
for there will be a time for every activity, a time for every deed."
I also thought, "As for men, God tests them so that they may see that they are like the animals.
Man's fate is like that of the animals; the same fate awaits them both: As one dies, so dies the other.
All have the same breath; man has no advantage over the animal. Everything is meaningless.
All go to the same place; all come from dust, and to dust all return.
Who knows if the spirit of man rises upward and if the spirit of the animal goes down into the earth?"
So I saw that there is nothing better for a man than to enjoy his work, because that is his lot.
For who can bring him to see what will happen after him?"