Sunday, February 19, 2012

gloomy sunday

yes i know that is the title to a hungarian suicide song that the great billie holiday made famous back in 1941. while i am not suicidal i am not happy either.

esther decided after 4 1/2 months of trying to grow her hair out, to give herself another hair cut today and this time...i laughed....and then i got mad.
i laughed because i couldnt believe it.

and FOR THE RECORD...i was in the bathtub. she was under Clay's watch this time.

here is the picture i got after i spanked her good. and it's not a great picture. i took it with my cell phone. i didnt want to glorify what she had done.

yep, right up front. a bald bangs.  i showed her this picture & i asked  her if she liked it & the way she looked & she said "no mommy, no..."

thankfully i can brush the remaining top hair & it looks like we are just brushing it to the side. i tried to put a clip in it & man she flipped. so we will see. i'm going to have to gel it or either force her into cute hair clips...but there isnt much you force Esther to do.
she is the most willful child i have ever known. but even as i type that....i am so proud of who she proud that she knows her own mind, that she stands her ground - nothing changes her mind unless she is ready to change it.

i love that she seems to fit the character of her biblical namesake:

Esther 2:7 "And he brought up Hadassah, that is, Esther, his uncle's daughter: for she had neither father nor mother, and the maid was fair and beautiful; whom Mordecai, when her father and mother were dead, took for his own daughter."

i dont know why, but i do know that esther is here for a purpose & that one day she will recognize what her purpose is. Thank you Lord for my precious Esther. I wouldnt change her for anything!

Esther 4:14 "For if you remain silent at this time, relief and deliverance for the Jews will arise from another place, but you and your father's family will perish. And who knows but that you have come to royal position for such a time as this?"

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